School

so... i have had conferences. they were great!

I still want the school year to be over... but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel!!

It is almost done we have like 73 days until this year called Hell is over!

i feel like everytime i voice a concern, somehow it comes back to me being too critical

or too picky. just b/c i want to protect my kids and keep them safe (God forbid).

sorry i care, maybe I should sotp caring.  that is not in my programming, but it may just

have to happen. 

besides that hopefully something else will come for next year. I just want to work with

Hispanic kids, I hope something turns up, so i can fulfill that need. 

So... the best part of my day.  I left the classroom to use the restroom or answered a phone call, or something... while I was gone my student B went into one of crazy tyrant moments with Becka and Sherwood... well he threw a ball, but no one noticed where it went... in the mean time one of my students said he smelled something burning... the paras said they did not smell it... i walk back into the classroom and look at my lamp it is smoking. at first i thought i was imagining it and then i was like no it is burning. my paras said no it isn't but it was. I went over and turned off the light. pulled the lamp towards me and there it was the squishy sensory ball it was burning...  the building almost caught on fire!!!!     

that was the funny moment of my day... God knew I needed it!!  I love you guys!

***SHINE***

the end

Wrap Up

I officially have 5 days left of this semester and I just wish the whole school year was over.

I can honestly say from every inch of my heart, that I absolutely hate my job.

There is never any breathing room, this County does what ever they can to cover

their own butt even if they are not being honest. Which bothers me more than

anything when someone is not honest. Money corrupts everything. Students are not getting

what they need we are confining them to what we have... but if we would higher

more people that were quliafied to teach to free up other people to be used where

they need to be used all will be happy. I just want my kids to get their best, but i have to be honest

I am exhausted at the end of the day... i am not just babysitting 7 little kids but two para's as well.

I have to go back and clean up the mess or give excuses or answers to decisions they have made themselves

before clearing it through me first. why?  i say one thing and everyone does another. I don't give directions to hear myself talk... truthfully at school i don't even like to talk i just want everyone to be quiet and stop talking b/c no one ever shuts up or stops calling "Robertson, Robertson, Robertson".

This all comes from the lack of help in my classroom and constantly having to redirect all morning without any help in the classroom.  I need a new job... anyone out there able to help me do that?  because I just feel like I am being walked all over and no one cares, and no one will give me a straight up answer on how they are getting away with not putting full time help into a special ed self-contained classroom.

:-(

I am blue....

I am going to see the Queen... then to Lunch with Terrisa and Brian...

then I am going to go to Barnes & Noble for a while... my little Heaven!!

the end

***SHINE***

Family

I know this post is coming a lot sooner than normal....

On Friday, I went to a Christmas thing at church with My Mom and my friend Gina.

Gina made the comment that I know everyone and make them feel welcome that I would make a great

pastor's eife... honestly I would love to marry someone in the Ministry. I know it would never be easy,

but I am as real and compassionate as someone is going to get.  I would love to take on that challenge...

anyhoo... it seems everytime i turn around someone i am interested in or have been interested in is headed to

seminary... so weird. 

I went home to Kansas this weekend to visit the g-units.  and to go to the CHiefs game...

it was nice and peaceful I got some QT with John and was able to enjoy one of my favorite states.

My family is as crazy as usual, but I love them so much.

And it was nice to get away from the classroom responsibilities! 

Not much has happened, not very many profound thoughts... i am just eager to see where my life

is in 5 years to see how my path will zig zag all over the place and what other missions opportunities

God will send me on, SMILE and please pray i am obedient and not standoffish to His People!

the end

***SHINE***

EDIT:  God is so amazing... i am going to mexico for christmas, again!

he has so taken care of all the financial worries, which is a relief b/c my student loans, insurance,

tags,  emissions, phone bill you name it is all due in the month of december... oh nad a speeding ticket of $400 is due as well.  and i had a fabulous human being tell me it is covered if i help run things down there... exciting!!  the only bummer was telling grampa i was not coming home again for Christmas, it about broke my heart.  next summer and next Christmas i have to come home...

i will just have to take a break from Christmas away, my grampa gets sad not to have his favorite granddaughter there(hahaha) 

now it really is the end

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